I seriously have no idea what to blog about these days.

If I write a too in depth blog entry, you're gonna be reading all my rants on school and work and life in general and you wouldn't want that, would you?

Its like everyday is a bad day. And there's always something I could do to change it but I don't. Ever seen an empty plastic bag flying in the air on a windy day? Ever seen how it follows where the wind takes it? I am that plastic bag. Drifting off to wherever the 'wind' around me takes me. And wherever I navigate to, I don't really care because its probably for the best and its probably where I am supposed to be. To believe that I'll land in all the goodness of the world if I just close my eyes and be led.

I can never be a leader. And maybe I just don't want to. Its not about the responsibilities that I'll have on my shoulders, its about being responsible. Its about being a leader to those around me when I can't even decide on my own what shoes to get for myself without an opinion. Its about all those people looking at me and waiting to be given an order when I can't even order a meal without asking what everyone around me is ordering.

So you see, its not really about believing all the time. Its also about how much you believe in yourself to live up to the expectations of others. Expectations of family, expectations of friends and expectations you have for yourself. Most of the time we don't like these expectations, but sometimes, we just want to have some form of expectations, just so we know we 're on the right track. And that's when we know we're living the right way.

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We see everything through a glass, darkly. Sometimes we can peer through the glass and catch a glimpse of what is on the other side. If we were to polish the glass clean, we'd see much more. But then we would no longer see ourselves.
- Unknown