Okay, this post has got zero to do with my Assignments. I'm still stressed over it and I'm still not thinking good over it. Anyhow, I'm thinking, that if I mention this here, that it would seem more real and I would believe in it more. This has got nothing to do with school, once again I say, because I do know how to have a life outside of Ngee Ann Polytechnic! Or at least, I intend to. Hehe :)

What I'm trying to say here is that, everyone around me is happy, save for me. I want to be happy too. I DESERVE to be happy as well, in my own way of course. I deserve this happines and I WANT it so bad, you have no idea. I don't think I've ever wanted something so much in my life that I'm willing to be positive about it in my mind ALL THE TIME. I mean obviously I'm not thinking about 24/7. Its just, when the bad part of that thought enters my mind, I turn it around and comfort myself by saying that Its okay, my turn will also come. I will also get my happy beginning.

Yes, you read right. Happy beginning, not happy ending. Because how can it end when it has not even started? Most of you are probably wondering what heck am I going on about. But certain people will understand what I'm trying to say here. And if you don't understand, well then maybe your time to find out is not here yet :) I have set the period of time in my mind and I am SO SURE, so sure that I have never been this sure in my life about anything, that I will get my Happy Beginning. And all you have to do is just bless me with your prayers. Its all I need :D

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When there's something you really want, fight for it. Don't give up not matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. Because the best things in life, they don't come free.
-Dawson's Creek