I know I know, I have not updated in quite some time and you cannot really blame me. I have seriously been very busy with school and two-three nights in a row I only had like very few hours worth of sleep. I have come to realize how precious sleep is and how we humans cannot really do without it. So treasure the sleep that you have people, because there's always someone out there, me in particular, who wants to sleep but is so unfortunate that she can't.

Wouldn't it be cool if our bodies were designed in such a way that we did not require sleep at all and all that sleep time could be used to do more productive and constructive stuff like work and assignments. Some of us just have so many that its hard to stuff all of it into the 12 hours that we have during the day.

And in those rare free times that we have, we spend it going out and relaxing. Some people would say that why should you bother going out when you say you have so much work and end up leaving things to the last minute. I am sorry to say that you may not have a life, but some of us actually seem to do. Just because we have so many assignments does not mean that the whole world disappears along with it and we don't give the other things in our life any importance at all.

So next time, if you think that you don't seem to understand the kind of life that I live and can't seem to understand how I live it.. then please just don't. Because I am tired of explaining and I feel all the more useless because I already KNOW that I am not good at what I'm doing now and yet I'm still doing it. And it does not help at all when you say how easy things are for me or how you think I'm not busy AT ALL because only I know how difficult it really is and I also do need to relax at times. Especially since I SUCK. Really, really SUCK at it that not ONE simple, good idea seems to come to me at all. Its either I'm really dumb, or there's just something wrong with me.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
- Grey's Anatomy